Ranting. Cos that is what I do best.

Just a basic rant today, peeps.

I've been having crappy days lately. Struggling with most things, be it emotionally, work and life in general. I know I am writing this and showing it to the whole world, and I know it sounds pathetic, but I know that if I write it down, I will feel better in the long run. Hopefully I will look at this in a week or month's time and realise that things are so much better. And then, feel better. That all this struggling on the verge of insanity, was worthwhile.

I know that things happen for a reason, that life is a cycle of ups and downs and all those cliches.  But right now I'm missing the point of everything. My brain is so overloaded with stuff and thoughts that I  can barely relax, let alone sleep and not having nightmares. Deadlines aren't helping either. And the fact that my neighbours are noisy bastards and I can't find a furnished place which I actually like, is  further sinking me into the whole feeling annoyed and like shit.

Have you ever found yourself laughing when you're so damn stressed? That is me right now.
have you  ever found yourself feeling so alone even when surrounded by people? That is me right now.
Have you every found yourself feeling like you wanna break and smash everything in sight? That is  me right  now.

Have you ever found yourself expecting things from people who always say they care? That is me right now.

Have you ever found yourself feeling like your luck is just bullocks? That is me right now.

I am very  patient, and in general a  loving and giving person... But right now, I'm just below the boiling point.... and some day soon, I'm gonna break and do something which I know I will totally regret.

This is me trying to keep it all together for the 2629814746576th time.

God help me.